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Oct. 15th, 2009

4:06 PM

hey, i'm in england. yeah. looking for a place to live. will update more once i have suitable lodging. the end.

so ready to not be taken advantage of. so ready to not be let down.

definitely thought it was gonna be better.

oh well. t minus 4 days

*edit - emo entry dedicated to jack daniels and a night of ruined expectations. woohoo!

leaving

Aug. 28th, 2009 at 11:08 AM

it's been over a month since i have been on here. i haven't kept up with others' lives, but i promise i will once things stop being crazy.

i am moving in 12 days. 12 more days left in this country before i make my way into a completely new experience. i'm not going to lie, i am freaking out a bit.

these past couple weeks i've been spending a lot of time with my friends and, honestly, it isn't making it any easier to leave them. i'm going to miss calling up my best friend after work and spending 3 hours at dinner with her talking about everything. i'm going to miss going to parties where i know almost everyone and just being surrounded by people i care about. i'm going to miss being around the people that i've known for most of my life; people who have been there through the good and bad. i would be lying if i said i wasn't going to miss each and every person who has had any sort of impact on my life, whether good, bad, or indifferent.

in short, i'm definitely going to miss it here. but, besides the nerves, i'm really excited. i've got a chance to make more friends and go places i've never been before. this is a chance i wouldn't pass up for the world.

i'll try to update here as often as possible once i get over there. i'll definitely be updating my facebook since i can do that from my phone easily, so please keep in contact with me there.

Jun. 18th, 2009

12:52 PM

distant

looking forward

May. 11th, 2009 at 1:04 PM

things to look forward to (in no particular order):

- pool parties in july
- adventure to the san diego zoo
- tomorrow being the end of house/dog/cat sitting and me being $700 richer
- wine tasting with family up north
- free disneyland on my birthday
- england
- orange county
- AIM

it's the little things that have me excited right now

Location:work
Mood: optimistic

Apr. 6th, 2009

1:44 PM

a little less than 5 months left. then it's off to england. so, i figure i'll get a head start on some things. for starters, i need your addresses. i'll screen all comments. thanks!

also, you have any money you'd like to give me? haha. just kidding. your address will suffice.

Mar. 16th, 2009

11:32 PM

it's a little bit sad to me that we can only be "normal" online. but i've built this wall that i won't let you break down again. i'm going to give someone else the sledgehammer this time.

i'm doing a pretty good job of saving money right now. i will definitely have enough to move in september. it's getting closer and i'm excited and nervous and scared and anxious and happy and just super super excited! ahhh!

5 and a half more months. wow.

Mar. 2nd, 2009

11:33 PM

i just cried for an hour and a half straight watching a documentary. eff

Feb. 23rd, 2009

8:21 AM

you've got six more months of my presence, united states. and then i'm gone for at least three years. incredible.

Feb. 19th, 2009

10:14 AM

last night a man who literally smelled like shit (feces, if you will) used a line from the vh1 show "the pick-up artist" on me. little did he know that i adore things that are horribly bad and, thus, watched the whole first season of that show. i proceeded to call him out on it, at which point he decided to just talk to me about how great the show is instead. now, besides the fact that he smelled like shit and that i knew the line was from the show, it wouldn't have worked anyway. walking up to a girl and saying, "so, my sister's thinking about getting her boyfriend's name tattooed on her. do you think that's a good idea?" is not going to make her want to talk to you. it's going to make you look like a weirdo who brings up pointless topics of conversation with strangers.

on another note, i kissed a boy who was an awful kisser last night and really wasn't interesting at all. i probably won't see him again.

i haven't slept in the past few days and it's definitely catching up with me. i've got class tonight with the 20 year old who has knuckle tattoos and i haven't written my paper yet. i guess that's what work is for: writing journal entries and papers for school.

p.s. - how did i get a bruise on my forearm?

Mood: exhausted

yes, adam banks, i would like another

Feb. 18th, 2009 at 9:21 AM

last night after class korina, jordin, and i went to the beauty bar for korina's birthday. adam banks (i don't know his real name...and, to be honest, i don't really care) was working, which made korina's night. he proceeded to wink at me a few times throughout the night and i'm not really sure how i feel about it. i would be completely creeped out if he wasn't the cake eater, but because he is i think it's pretty hilarious. i think we're going to have a repeat tonight.

i got 102% on my first exam in my abnormal psychology class. maybe it's the classes i'm taking, maybe it's moorpark college, but i forgot how easy school is when you actually attend class. i still haven't learned how to not procrastinate, though.

i got the blackberry storm on saturday. so far, i think it's great. here's my pin if you have a blackberry and wanna bbm me: 305D299C

found out that my school in the uk is not able to receive title iv aid in the u.s.. i'm not really sure what that is...all i know is that it means that i can't get financial aid. and student loans will be near impossible to get from the u.s. as well. sooo, who wants to lend me the money i need for school?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CREEPY KORINA!

Feb. 9th, 2009

5:52 PM

today i wrote my personal statement for my application to school in the uk. tomorrow i call my old boss for a letter of recommendation. whenever she gets it back to me i send in my application.

today i figured out that i can pay for my first year of school with the money i will get from selling my truck. tomorrow i will figure out how i am going to save enough money to pay for housing, food, other essentials and fun when i move before i find a job. when i get to the uk i figure out where i can work.

today i started seriously planning the next 3 and a half years of my life. tomorrow i will continue to plan. after that i will live.

i'm more excited than ever.

seattle

Feb. 8th, 2009 at 8:28 PM

had a blast
( lots of pictures inside )

spontaneity

Feb. 4th, 2009 at 8:18 AM

this past weekend korina and i went to san bernardino to see my friends from kansas play a show in a church. other than the fact that there was some preaching involved, it was really fun and incredibly good to see those guys. i went from waking up in the same cramped room with them and spending all day and night with them to not seeing them for 4 months. So, reuniting was amazing.

on the drive down there, i mentioned that i had found plane tickets to seattle for this coming weekend for $59 each way. i tend to find these deals and then never act on them or go alone because no one else is able/wants to go. to my surprise, korina said she actually wanted to go.

on monday we bought our plane tickets. we leave for seattle on friday night at 5 pm and get back on sunday around noon. even though i saw some of my friends from seattle 2 weeks ago, i'm still really excited to see them again and to see all the other friends i have up there and haven't seen since september.

i'm thinking of going to boston in the near future because i found some pretty darn cheap airfare. but that's still up in the air because europe is looking better and better all the time. especially ireland :)

other than my travel plans, life is good. busy...but good. working monday through friday 8 am to 4 pm. school tuesday and thursday from 6:30 pm to 10 pm. been going out to la a lot still. it's good to see new faces and meet new people. i wouldn't mind seeing some old faces in the near future though.

expect a picture post when i return from seattle.

Jan. 20th, 2009

5:40 PM

hope. change. peace.

today is a great day.

two thousand fine, indeed!

this is my friend gouda. he is a straight man.

Jan. 4th, 2009 at 6:17 PM

Jan. 3rd, 2009

6:27 PM

it was recently pointed out to me that i look happy. there's a very good possibility that it's because i am happy. 2009 looks promising.

2008 was full of mistakes, experiences, and a lot of interesting situations. i learned a lot last year about myself and those around me. i have no regrets.

i'm ready for what lies ahead. i can't wait to see what this year will bring.

Location:home
Mood:anticipatory

Dec. 13th, 2008

3:40 PM

byebye normal crush. helllooooo multiple celebrity crushes! it's much easier to like someone when you don't really know anything about them.

i'm going to south by southwest in march. i'm moving to england no later than january 2010. my hope is to meet one or more of my celebrity crushes at sxsw and/or some swanky club in london and seduce them. i think it'll work.

Nov. 28th, 2008

4:30 PM

i cannot stop listening to matt pond pa. every day to and from work. there's something about that band that makes me happy...even after suffering through a day at my crappy job. it's incredible music and if you haven't checked them out you really need to. i think my favorite album is "several arrows later," but that may be just because i am most familiar with that one. to be honest, they're all pretty darn amazing.

i also cannot stop watching "never mind the buzzcocks." but only seasons 19 and up. because, by golly, if simon amstell isn't the perfect man! adorable, hilarious, jewish, english, and gay! there is a very strong possibility that i would have a sex change for that man. it also doesn't hurt that he has guests on there like mark ronson (who i am determined to marry) and yannis philippakis (who is a perfect combination of a celebrity i've been fond of for forever and a boy i currently have a crush on). if you haven't seen it, look it up on youtube. i recommend the episode with preston. type in "never mind the buzzcocks preston" and it should pop up. i don't laugh out loud while watching comedians or comedy shows very often, but i find myself in tears at least once per episode.

i don't know if it's a combination of these 2 things or just a general change in the air, but i seem to actually be happy. despite the fact that my job is awful. things might actually be looking up.

Location:home
Mood: content
Music:matt pond pa - halloween

for your viewing pleasure

Nov. 25th, 2008 at 10:06 AM

truth.

i made this because i was trying to post a real picture of myself, but this computer at my work is horribly ancient. it took 20 minutes just to load this page so that i could post this entry. amazing.

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